I'm sick of

I write this not for pity or apologies, but to make clear what I need to change.

Im sick of not being defined and being just 150 pounds
Im sick of my family
Im sick of being $2000+ in debt
Im sick of always getting back in debt
Im sick of having no money
Im sick of not making money in my business
Im sick of not holding people accountable and following through in business
Im sick of not being able to breakdance
Im sick of my acne
Im sick of not having a successful business launch/beauty break/nao thing
Im sick of the rainy weather here
Im sick of not having a reading habit everyday of business and scriptures
Im sick of not eating healthier food
Im sick of not having good clothing, a nice suit, or being able to buy clothing
Im sick of not spending time with my friends or being able to do stuff/buy stuff for them
Im sick of saying Ill do things but not do them
Im sick of not dating
Im sick of not doing a great short movie or video diary
Im sick of not doing podcasts
Im sick of not having a job right now to support basic needs
Im sick of not having a good computer work station
Im sick of sleeping on the floor
Im sick of not having my own place
Im sick of not having a car or valid license
Im sick of not having a motorcycle
Im sick of not having asian friends I do things with regularly
Im sick of not having african american friends I do things with regularly
Im sick of the government
Im sick of not having an electric car
Im sick of not having a Japanese cell phone or equivelant awesome phone
Im sick of not having a 300pv circle
Im sick of not having a nice slr digi camera
Im sick of not having a nice video camera
Im sick of not having regular doctor checkups or dentist appointments
Im sick of not having auto and health insurance
Im sick of not having a savings
Im sick of not getting things done faster
Im sick of being unorganized
Im sick of my parents house being full of junk
Im sick of not being a better gentleman
Im sick of not being more of a warrior/living the martial way
Im sick of only having one contact to wear
Im sick of having a slow internet connection
Im sick of not being a better missionary
Im sick of this hard seat
Im sick of not having perfect vision
Im sick of not knowing my presidential choices better
Im sick of our country being in debt
Im sick of our government spending
Im sick of our governmental growth
Im sick of people prejudging my business
Im sick of lack of government transparancy
Im sick of how big and messy our government is
Im sick of not having a photography/art collection
Im sick of not having an awesome muscle car
Im sick of not having an easy to shave face
Im sick of not having been to other countries like Japan
Im sick of not knowing spanish better
Im sick of not knowing another language, like Japanese or Vietnamese
Im sick of not going to New York
Im sick of not having a flying car
Im sick of other people being ignorant about issues
Im sick of not using the potential mentors in my life
Im sick of not having a success team
Im sick of not having a girl in my life or dating
Im sick of my mom and Rachel fighting
Im sick of my mom fighting with everyone
Im sick of not knowing my bio dad or the Ware family better
Im sick of not being able to go to events, buy things, do things, have things because of no money
Im sick of not having a better attitude more often
Im sick of not helping other people more often
Im sick of not knowing my testimony
Im sick of not having a patriarchal blessing
Im sick of dumb movies
Im sick of dumb television
Im sick of dumb music